Sweet Distraction by iaVember

Oh Sweet Distraction,

Why do you come in such a time when you're not needed?

Why appear when I least expect it?

Why quake my thoughts and distract me?

Oh Sweet Distraction, why?

Oh Sweet Distraction,

Was it that it wasn't meant to be?

Was it meant for a different time between you and me?

Was tonight not the night for another memory?

Oh Sweet Distraction, was it me?

Oh Sweet Distraction,

You completely derail me.

Oh Sweet distraction,

You confuse me.

Oh Sweet Distraction,

You have left me hanging.

Oh Sweet Distraction,

To return in track, this I scribble.

a Day and a Night by iaVember

a Day

A day is all it took for my heart to pump bliss into my soul -

Simplicity and an instant connection,

Effortless waves of thoughts and conversations -

Raging wonders, covering every pothole.

You are to me an unforeseen expectedness -

Thoughts, images that came to life,

Reality and dreams no longer in strife -

Flashing images into my blindness.

Echoing voice and an infixed smile -

Masculine laughter, wit and humor,

Subtle humility and an adorable pomposity -

Memoirs etched into my mental file.

a Night

The complete opposition of a Day -

Flaws seen, expressed, heard, felt,

Imperfections jovially shared -

Equally worthy, supersedingly enticing.

Narratives of facts and a pair of sweets -

Inconvenience and weird dislikes,

Saccharine treats and foolish remarks -

Unadorned simple dining at the fifteenth.

Twinkling stars, passing cars -

Childish steps and easy talks,

Keeping distance til we crossed -

Sharing more laughter under the stars.

Magical, dreamy, wonderfully real -

His arm around me, light and warm,

His fingers finding their way between mine -

Reality as sweet as a dream.

a Day and a Night is all they'll ever be;

A wonderfully sung melody.

a Day and a Night gladdened my soul;

Worth remembering, retelling to the most.

a Day and a Night I felt joyfully fluky;

Living in the moment to be happy.

a Day and a Night is all they'll ever be;

Waiting is over. Today has beckoned Me.

Close to Everything by iaVember

I wish to write what you have made me see

I wish to write what you have made me feel

But words at times are midget counterparts

Of what is going on between the soul and mind

Of how you've reminded me that I'm a lady

Through opening doors and behaving gentlemanly

Of how instantly our wavelengths matched

As if were two people familiar of each other

Of how you've laughed at my jokes

And how comfortably you've shown your joy

Of how you've shared a part of you

And of stories of the journey of your faith

Of how you were interested in my field

And tried to understand certain things

Of how tactly honest you are on things

While staying open about what I see

I don't know where these all will lead

Or if this will ever lead to something

All I know is if God wills it, it will happen

So I lift up all in prayers abiding His answers

Undefined by iaVember

Allow the hands of the faithful clock

To travel to the moments back

Jovial, young, reminiscent-full

Each moment priceless for they were no fools

They knew it happened not everyday

They took it, held it, what is more to say?

Each moment diamonds, rubies pearls

Wrapped with hearty youthful cheers

What transpired was already special

Thus what came next made it etherial

A moment captured not by cameras

But by hearts and mental dioramas...

Intertwined fingers, clasping hands

No words spoken for that heartfelt bond

As natural it is for birds to fly

That moment went on as lights went by

They know not how, know not why

Or if it were the force of a magical wine

Not an explanation or a litany required

For a moment so special is best undefined

(CTTO)

I Love You by iaVember

I love you 

Even if yours are the eyes I haven't stared at

I love you

Even if yours is the voice I don't recognize

I love you

Even if yours are the arms I have not felt around me

I love you

Even if yours is the smile I haven't smiled back at

I love you

Even if yours are the dreams I have not known

I love you

Even if yours is the mind I have not shared ideas with

I love you

Even if yours are the feet which haven't walked with me

I love you

Even if yours is the longing I am unaware of

I love you

Even if yours are the flaws I have yet to discover

I love you

Even if yours is the heart I have not known

I love you

Even if you don't know me

I love you

Even if you're still not part of my life

I love you

Even if I have not the slightest idea about you

I love you

Even if you are still an unsung prayer

I love you 

Even if the probability of having you is out of my league

I love you

Because it is God who will give me you

I love you

Because it is God who will give me to you

I love you

Because I love you

Photographs by iaVember

I stare at photographs taken at past

Looking closely at flashing smiles

Candid moments and rehearsed poses

Are all eternal memoirs of what has 

What has been a great journey filled with laughter and tears

What has been a life changing process endured through fear

What has been one special moment worth retelling true

What has been a reality that has now beckoned as a memory

I stare at photgraphs taken at past

Oh how fast the past can seem to pass

Candid moments and rehearsed poses

Eternal witnesses of my withering and blooming

Love Is Waiting

I may not know who you are right now, how you look like or how you are. I may not know where you live, what you do or who your friends are. I don't know when and how, but know that I am praying for you and this song goes out to you... Until His perfect time, love is waiting for the both of us.

Love Is Waiting

by Brooke Fraser

In the autumn on the ground,

between the traffic and the ordinary sounds

I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through

I watch as lovers pass me by

Walking stories - whos and hows and whys

Musing lazily on love

Pondering you

I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell

When it's time to walk that way we wanna walk it well

[CHORUS:]

I'll be waiting for you baby

I'll be holding back the darkest night

Love is waiting til we're ready, til it's right

Love is waiting

It's my caution not the cold

there's no other hand that i would rather hold

the climate changes, I'm singing for the strangers about you

don't keep time, slow the pace

Honey hold on if you can

the bets are getting surer now that you're my man

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]

I could write a million songs about the way you say my name

I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again

and like I can't force the sun to rise or hasten summer's start,

neither should I rush my way into your heart

Here's a link to a lyric video of the song

http://youtu.be/Q7T-tX2hhDQ

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Call me melodramatic or hopeless romantic, but I will always believe in love and that he's out there and in God's time we'll find each other. -iaVember

(Photo Credits to the owner)

Is It Goodbye by iaVember

There's too much, too much

Too much for one heart

There's too much, too much

Too much for one soul

There's too much, too much

Too much a cry for one tear

There's too much, too much

Too much pain for one probable goodbye

...

Eyes close and pictures of happiness abound

Yet when it opens, sadness is at its high

A smile for every smile remembered

Yet a tear when the picture of the smile fades

The Heart is holding on to what can still be -

To that possibility that the goodbye need not be

But the Mind, cunning mind, wants to be ready

Stand tall, stay strong for whatever falls

Its invisibility through time makes the pain sting deeeper

No signals nor warnings simply the undertaking

They all add up to this herculean moments

Heftier than the hammer of Thor

With each daylight comes the dreaded night

But now the night seems livelier than the day

The day stings every bit of humanity there is

Thus the night is the only escape

When will this end? When will this be over?

How many days more need to be endured?

How many more nights need be welcomed by a saddened heart?

How many fading memories will fade with none anew?

...

Too much, too much

Too much for our hearts

Too much, too much

Too much for our souls

Too much, too much

Too much crying for our tears

Too much, too much

Too much pain for your probable goodbye

Yet would it be too much, too much

Too much that you'd stay?

Stranger by iaVember

He doesn't know her.

She doesn't know him.

Yet for that moment,
for that brief moment,
She felt like there was something familiar about him.

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It was an ordinary day.
Nothing felt special. Nothing seemed new.
She was there to do an errand.

With coffee and bread occupying her hands,
She entered an unfamiliar office and sat on an unfamiliar chair.

As she sat waiting, she felt an unfamiliar stare from across the room.

Subtly, she found herself looking at the corner in front of her.

There He was. Staring at her.

On regular circumstances, she would have already felt uncomfortable -
A stranger was staring at her.
But She didn't.
There was something in His stare -
Something familiar.
Something that made her Smile (from within).

"Here you go," the woman in blue said as she handed her the document she requested.
"Thank you," she said in reply.

As her business was done, She stood up and headed for the door.
And as she was about to close the door, She again caught sight of him.

Staring. That strangely familiar stare.

And without smiling back, She closed the door and left.
But deep inside her, She knew... Her heart was smiling for a reason she doesn't know yet why.
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There could be a reason. There could be none.
That moment could mean something. That moment could mean nothing.

Something or Nothing, She is thankful for that brief moment when She felt happy.

Three Thirty by iaVember

3:30

The mark of the first

The time when she will enter that dark familiar place

The time when she will see everything through her eyes alone -

Hear everything as she hears them

Feel everything as she feels them

Process everything as she, and no other, would process it

It's the first -

Her first

She walks in brisk not wanting to miss that mark

She stretches out her hand hoping to catch a ride

Fifteen minutes

That is all she got

A white four-wheeled vehicle stationed before her

And with not much ado she finds herself inside it

The wheels turned and traced the road

And with few minutes to spare

She got there

3:30

For One

She grabbed the small piece of yellow paper that she was given

Walked inside the darkness

Found a place of comfort in the darkness

And stared at the brightness before her

There she was

She and no one else

She laughed at every witty line

(Others were laughing too, but they weren't laughing with her)

She caught her breath with every thrilling moment

(Tightly holding no hand)

And of course

She cried

Oh yes,

She Cried!

But she covered her own eyes and wiped her own tears

(No arm was there to embrace her)

Yes, She was Alone

But she felt Not Lonely

Two hours. Lots of minutes.

When the end was reached her eyes were red

But a Big Smile was on her face

She was Happy. Satisfied. 

It was worth it.

She felt good. Liberated. Independent.

And she said,

"I think I'll do this again."

Parting Pain by iaVember

Time and time again none stays

One moves, travels, leaves – Grows

To hinder such is a futile attempt

For we have to move to find our ways

But, oh Parting, dear, is such a Pain

No known heart could withstand its punches

Waving palms, backs turned –

A perfect sight to put one in vain

Though the image of return resonates

Parting, dear, stays and lingers

Til, perhaps, the heart has grown used

To the image painted by fate

Put the Pain in Parting

Embrace the parting silhouette

Savor that minute before the absence

And soon Pain too shall be in fading

For we all shall learn the art

Of embracing the fading image of the sun

And greeting its rising with a warmer heart

As Pain too, in due, shall Part

-iaVember

A Crime [it is not] by iaVember

(Originally a note on my Facebook account, I have  deemed it just that I share it here for it is, after all, the first poem I have written in my renaissance.)

Moving on, if a crime, has been done by thousands -

Letting go, Looking forward to a new sunrise

Staring at the sunset and memories it cries -

No! Nay! 'tis never been a crime to fall and stand

For one to think it is wrong is to think wrongly

To consider stagnancy a choice so prudent

Staying on the same ground nostalgic'ly fervent

Making thineself believe 'tis what's happy, merry

Yet to fall and to stay is a heftier crime

Not to the people 'round whose eyes are fixed on thee 

Nor to the society; Nor to your pedigree

But to thineself whom you owe every bit of dime

Charades, Pretentions, Masquerades all sorts of games

Can conceal your yearning to go and move forward

But 'til when can toilsome travesties hold your guard?

Thus, readiness to move forward comes with no shame

So to you whose heart once broken is now in whole

Tell no more fiction stories nor share filtered thoughts

If you've gone along, Go! for there's none to be fought

There's no point in pretentions; they're but shallow holes

 

Moving on, if a crime, has been done by thousands -

Letting go, Looking forward to a new sunrise -

Erase thine shame and thine shams and shed no more lies

For moving on is a Gift, a Crime it is not

Letter of Fate

R,

I know we have been through a lot and with all that we have gone through, I promised you ONE THING -- to remain your friend, YOUR BEST FRIEND.

To STAY in your life.

To BE THERE for you.

I am keeping that promise...

...

...

...

But I will have to do it in a different way. I'm keeping it, but I will have to deviate from the norm.

I am still your BEST FRIEND, but I will now be doing it from a distance and with space.

I'm sorry coz somehow I know that this would be hurting you [or I can be wrong], but from all that I have seen since that day, I have come to realize that my continued presence [not to mention meddling] in your life can make [and has made] matters worse.

Wind I will be in your life now -- caring but without showing myself.

Every message. Every beep. I promise. I will still read.

But my reply would be of prayer form, hoping that, if it is meant to, it could reach your heart and soul.

No changing of contact infos nor deletion from sites -- they all will remain the same.

I guess what I'm trying to say is...

Know and remember that I still care. Have and always will.

With your every sorrow, I feel and sigh...

With your every triumph, I smile and jump high.

With your every obstacle, my prayer I give...

And with every dream, a wind I send to push your wings towards it.

I am, and will always be your BEST FRIEND.

There is no space in my heart that abhors you... 

All I have for you is a prayer for your happiness and a heart that truly cares.

One day... When we have both healed... When the past would matter no more... And the pain is but a lesson learned...

In His perfect time... 

I will reenter your life, if you'd still allow me to.

But for now my Dearest Friend...

I will be your Sun shining for you from where I'm supposed to be --

Outside your world, so as not to burn and scorch you.

Smile. Soar. Savor. 

Always,

iaVember

New Road by iaVember

It's time [she believes] that she does something for herself
[Something she deserves]
More than fancy jewelry or shoes-filled shelves
Is happiness and peace that she yearns

So a promise she came to make
To walk and be away
On a road that she knows she needs to take
That has long been rain-checked

She knows it won't be easy
Reasons to stop & turn around paves her way
But if she wont take it now, WHEN?
If she won't take a leap she'll never get to leave

So for those she'll mar 
[She knows clearly there is]
She means not to, but this she has to do
To leave for now and leave no trace
Coz in time she knows she can then come back
When the road is less potholed and cracked