Sunday, January 19, 2014

Letter of Fate

R,

I know we have been through a lot and with all that we have gone through, I promised you ONE THING -- to remain your friend, YOUR BEST FRIEND.

To STAY in your life.

To BE THERE for you.

I am keeping that promise...
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...
...
But I will have to do it in a different way. I'm keeping it, but I will have to deviate from the norm.

I am still your BEST FRIEND, but I will now be doing it from a distance and with space.

I'm sorry coz somehow I know that this would be hurting you [or I can be wrong], but from all that I have seen since that day, I have come to realize that my continued presence [not to mention meddling] in your life can make [and has made] matters worse.

Wind I will be in your life now -- caring but without showing myself.

Every message. Every beep. I promise. I will still read.
But my reply would be of prayer form, hoping that, if it is meant to, it could reach your heart and soul.

No changing of contact infos nor deletion from sites -- they all will remain the same.

I guess what I'm trying to say is...

Know and remember that I still care. Have and always will.
With your every sorrow, I feel and sigh...
With your every triumph, I smile and jump high.
With your every obstacle, my prayer I give...
And with every dream, a wind I send to push your wings towards it.

I am, and will always be your BEST FRIEND.
There is no space in my heart that abhors you... 
All I have for you is a prayer for your happiness and a heart that truly cares.

One day... When we have both healed... When the past would matter no more... And the pain is but a lesson learned...

In His perfect time... 

I will reenter your life, if you'd still allow me to.

But for now my Dearest Friend...

I will be your Sun shining for you from where I'm supposed to be --
Outside your world, so as not to burn and scorch you.

Smile. Soar. Savor. 











Always,
iaVember

Saturday, January 18, 2014

New Road by iaVember

It's time [she believes] that she does something for herself
[Something she deserves]
More than fancy jewelry or shoes-filled shelves
Is happiness and peace that she yearns

So a promise she came to make
To walk and be away
On a road that she knows she needs to take
That has long been rain-checked

She knows it won't be easy
Reasons to stop & turn around paves her way
But if she wont take it now, WHEN?
If she won't take a leap she'll never get to leave

So for those she'll mar 
[She knows clearly there is]
She means not to, but this she has to do
To leave for now and leave no trace
Coz in time she knows she can then come back
When the road is less potholed and cracked