Life has its way of surprising us. I, for one, was surprised (even shocked) of what it has prepared for me.
Just when I thought that things will be happy and okay... things came crashing. And right now, I am torned between moving on and lingering.
It's hard to let go of something (of someone) when it has meant the whole world to you for the longest time. And what makes it harder, is that, just when you thought that you'd make it.. something happens and proves you wrong. If I could only do this alone. If I could just solve this dilemma on my own.. I would've already done that. But I need him now more than I ever needed him before when all were happy and full of love.
I don't even know what to think or feel right now. He left everything hanging. I don't know where to start picking all the pieces. And this makes it harder for me... all I want is to be happy.. and for the longest time I wanted to be happy with him.. but right now.. all these are but like the wind... unseen yet felt.. intangible yet affects.
As a start.. though my heart & mind are still lost on what to do... I have post-its on my cabinet door to remind me that life doesn't end here. There are still more to life than the pain and dilemma that I am going through. And right now, since clarity has not yet visited my doors. I am doing my best to be happy with what and who I have left.
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